The good thing about thinking about committing suicide is that it's a thought not acted upon.......
....There is a darkness that lives in us all. Some are the lucky ones and rarely have to deal with it.
Some are consumed by the darkness.
And some willingly embrace it.
I use mine as a film projector that allows me to play scenarios of what if's and wanton wishes.
So sweet have the thoughts of cold silence been as of late.
Opportunities that present themselves pass like a second hand on an ancient watch.
This way, that way and it's done. Though unwound tick tick tick, it's not complete.
It's the after I dare not think about.
It is the after that reason pulls me from my darkness.
It is the after that I truly fear to fail.
So I let go of my darkness, I let it creep back to its place till next time.
Maybe next time, maybe the after won't come and the darkness with get to stay, but then all is undone no time to play.
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