2011 has been a flurry of travel and work. Pretty much these past two months have been go go go. Which is fine, being busy keeps the mind occupied. Free of worry .. .. Well almost. Contract renewals, weddings, expectations, lack of (whatever) that maybe missing in my life.
To start with myself, hopefully this year I can get past my personal issues and allow myself to find someone that makes me happy. Frankly last year I fucked things up (once again). I met someone the was truly special and who really was into me. Rather than letting here in I shut down and let stupid little things bother me. Yes I am a dumb fuck, yes it was all my fault. If I could call a do over I would. And would for certain still be with that woman. Yes I am a tool. I am trying to be a better person, work in progress.
Looking towards the rest of the year. This summer and fall I will finish the sociology degree. I am bound and determined to complete it. I have to, it is important that I do. I have been thinking grad school for a history degree at Oakland. Even though I really didn't want to write a book, I think I want to write a book. History is something that I love and care about. This brings up work. My contract ends this year. If my company wins the work i could really care less. I like my job, I like the people, but I do not see myself doing this same job until I retire. I have seen the GS people at work. Don't want to be one of those folks. It's not worth it.
I have rambled enough for now.
